D00d I can't even remotely relate to what you must be going through. 
 
I'm sure this experience that you gain will be well worth it for you and the people you know.   
 
But it's training right now, so I guess it isn't nearly as tough as being "on the job" so to speak 
		
	
		
		
		
		
			
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