i would rather be...

[ZebraRampage]

Originally Posted by Vampyr

Seeing as how I'm just 17, and havnt went off to college or anything, my life couldnt be a whole lot different...but I'll give this a shot...

I wouldnt have lived the first 16.5 years of my life bound and blindfolded. I wouldnt have waited that long to start acting like the person I really am. Instead I chose to not express myself. I chose to be a shy, yet somehow arragont and conceited know-it-all. I rarely laughed, but never cried either. I was emotionally and socially detatched. And the worst part was I liked being that way.

Always too afraid to talk to the girl I liked or even show that I capable of such feelings. And by the time I actually did get a girlfriend, I still hadnt changed. I still wasnt outgoing and I still didnt have much of a personality to speak of. I dont have a clue what she saw in me in the first place. And by the time I realized that I did care for her, it was too late. I had already blown it. But it managed to pull me out of whatever hole I had been in.

I'm over that now...I just wish I had become me sooner.

I must say, I can relate to you very well, except for being arrogant and conceited. I suppose I'm still having some troubles...but it's not as worse as before.